Sometimes it’s difficult to think about

I am getting ready to scrap a few layout this evening, but today I was cleaning out some old paperwork I have building up.  Every time my dad has been in the hospital and they send you home with all this paperwork, this past time in November they sent me home with 12 different sets of you have this and what it is and what he needed to do.  Yes, 12 different sets!!  He really just went though a very bad time then.  My father has lung nodules that the doctors are closely monitoring.  When you add this to the mix of COPD/emphysema, its not a good thing.  But I have been doing my homework, and yes sometimes the Internet can not be a good thing, you learn a lot about what things can be.  But the way I see it, not just as his caregiver, but as his daughter, I need to be prepared!  Emotionally, physically and otherwise I need to be prepared.  Since my dad in the past work in the auto part industry, he turned drums and rotors, he was exposed to asbestos, so the possibility of my father having Mesothelioma has not been ruled out.  Should this be the case, then we are going to have to start doing a search for Mesothelioma lawyers and find one to take on my dad’s case, so that my dad can get the proper medical care he will need!  It’s just been an emotional roller coaster with all these CT scans my dad has had to have, as they monitoring the nodules.  I have to take him again in October for another scan.

My dad has been sick since last week and I take him tomorrow for a follow up appointment, and when I listen and watch him suffering, even more than normal, it is just so hard.  Maybe today wasn’t the day to sort the paper work but I do need to get these things in order, I have a responsibility to him to make sure all the I’s are dotted and the T’s are crossed!!